While staring out at the almost bare tree infront of my window, the thought of how decisions made in the past resulted in my life today.

I wonder what would I be doing now if I had chosen to take the JC path along with everyone else after Os. What would life be like now if I had chosen to join the workforce after getting my diploma instead of applying for university. Would my university life be different if I had accept SMU's offer to do business or if I had not appealed and just accepted NTU's offer of computer science.

Looking back, there are indeed many opportunities for life to be very different from what it is now if I had taken different decisions then. Not that I'm regretting anything as I wouldn't know what life is like for the other options, I'm just pondering.

If I had gone on to JC, I might not have done as well as I did in poly, or maybe I would. If I had join the workforce I might be a crazy programmer pulling my hair out just to meet the deadlines and always staring at the computer, with the mind processing only in computer laguage. But I might also be doing well at work and earning money, after all its almost 2.5 yrs since I graduated. If I had accepted SMU's offer, I might be another person now for the school is different, evident from the interview that I had went through. Which biz sch requires an interview to be done? Isn't that only done for law and medical school? I still vaguely remembered the topic of the interview. We had to state our opinions on pulling the plug on our love ones who is on life support. I nearly flipped when I heard this qn since there is no right or wrong, all depends on your reasoning. It doesn't help that the interview is like done in a group and ppl in the group will shoot you if they beg to differ. And certainly doesn't help when the ppl in my group are all so articulate from all the various top JCs and are yakking away like long-time friends while waiting though we have all met barely 10 min ago. -_-"

Ok I'm disgressing. Or if I had not appealed, most likely I would have done computer science since it is related to my diploma and I would get a .5 year exemption. This really is life ehh.

I appealed with almost 100% confidence it will be successful. Many people asked why did I chose to do a complete course switch and thus wasting 1 year. I can't exactly say why. Its just a strong force, gut feel? that tells me to go for this course. I don't usually rely on gut feel but sometimes, well I don't know, I simply just decided that this course shall be it. Call this fate? Maybe.

I'm not exactly doing as well as I would like in the degree now but at least the future still excites me. Whatever it is, we won't know what is installed for us in future till we get there do we. So I think looking forward is the right way, at least for now. No point looking backward since nothing can be changed.